Like I said, I cannot claim to know your intentions. The circumstances around the apparent ban & evasion attempt just don't look good in your favor.
This: (1mo ago)
is a very vile action. DDOS is not only toxic in-game, but it is a threat to interrupt a person's personal life by shutting down their internet. For example, I am working from home right now because of COVID-19. If someone shut my internet down, I'd be sure to never let them on a server I managed ever again.
A DDoS of the game server means nobody gets to play. This is still awful.
This isn't just being toxic or annoying in-game, this goes way beyond that and effects people's real lives.
This: (2.5mo ago)
shows that you've been banned before and didn't dial back the toxicity from the punishment at that time.
I cannot claim to know your intentions or your remorse, but there's starting to be a track record of yourself and your character.
You've been playing here since 2018, so these might just be anomalies in an otherwise perfect record. I genuinely hope this is the case.
Again, remaining neutral to give you the benefit of the doubt.